Hello (((MY BEST KIDS))). I am very sorry for the hard time that you are having in your life at this time. I hope things get better for you soon, and you accept the break that you are having in life to be able to move on and forgive yourself for something that is not under your control. We all have things in life that have happened due to no fault of our own, and I hope one day you feel that you can move on and accept life in a less problematic manner. Jus take things one day at a time if possible. Take care ((MY BEST KIDS)). Soidhonia