CBT T today was so hard to get through to. The concept that I'd leave therapy and be upset for days was worrisome for him. He just couldn't grasp why therapy would be so jarring for me, why it would dredge up needy feelings. That I'd sometimes feel nauseous or even get sick before or after session. To lose sleep over it. It was just not on his radar and I think his own therapy experience was way more cerebral while mine is more emotional.

I feel like I've been hitting my head against a wall this morning.