thankyou for all your replies. i have to take some of the blame i suppose for sending him that message on yahoo and not here cos he was at work. to me i was naive and stupid but this new gut made some really bad suggestions to me so i didn't get in touch again. i asked doc jon to delete him from here and he has. i guess i'mm just gullible. as you all know i crave attention aso some of the comments were over the top, but i felt sick when he replied to me and what he said when i knew him for such a short time. he's a cop too. i would be mad if it was the other way around but would not have told the kids. that's what has really cut me up. i just hope we can work things out. i still love him, but i feel betrayed too on the porn thing, makes me feel worthless and unattractive, i cant live up to those images.
take care, just came on to see if i've been deleted, keeping myself busy to take my mind off things

jinny xoxoxoxoxo love you all, thanks for all your support