I've cut myself on and off for 5 years. I guess I don't know how to deal with my emotions. I bottle everything up, and when I do explode a combonation of things: cry, throw things, and cut. Of course I do this in the company of my own room but it's always taken away my terrible feelings and replaced it with nothingness.

I'm not usually trying to kill myself, just take away the emotional pain. over the past 5 years other than that the cuts have just been nicks with minimal scaring and discoloration.

Sometimes I worry that it's all I know and that I'll end up dead by the my mid-twenties. I'm honestly surprised I've made it this far. If I do live a long life, I worry I will always cut. It's a terrible habit and I want to know how to stop, I just don't know how.