I am so sorry you feel that way. I can understand how that would make you feel like that. There is no glory in finding you have a STD. But you are getting it taken care of and you will no longer have it.

Sometimes we judge ourselves far more harshly then others judge us. We are our own worst enemy. at times. Hopefully in time this feeling will pass. In the mean time all I can offer you is big ole virtual hugs. ((((((HUGGGGGGGS)))