I hope its ok to post this in general,...I've been debating whether or not this is a depressioin thread,social,general,sexual,...or all. Right now...I'm so confused...I'm 17 for the billionth time..I feel I must say that for anyone new to my posts to understand where I'm coming from as a teen,and as a depressed person...So what is life? Whats love? I don't understand....I mean I hear so much even as of late from adults...that sex is the only thing in a relationship that holds it...and that builds it...this isnt a sex thread...thats just 1 issue im struggling with...you may take these things as minior things but their driving me insane and I can't be happy knowing that the world lives this way. Since I was about 15 I've started "ACTING" like other ppl...to try and understand life...and why they do the "things" they do.

I first started rebelling...doing irrational things for rational reasons...to be happy. I started to hate,smoke(not saying smokers are bad just it fit the image...plz take this lightly),sin,and just rebell...its hard for me to put these things in words as a teen but as I grow up it'll be easier to describe. As of late...I've tried to understand the difference between lust/and love....are they different or more the same then we think?

Gosh...I rattle my brain that I becmoe depressed...my mind never stops..I'm no normal in the aspect I can't do something without coming up with 100 reasons why or why not to pursue it and know the conciqeunces ...and I regretably pursue things that I do regret...

Gosh this was moree of a rant...and a chest reliver.....

Thanks for listening....