I am a VERY black and white thinker...... so forgive me.

You say nobody cares, then you say your mother does. Contradiction #1.

You say mom does not count cuz she is your mom and she *has to*. Not true. I know a number of people who had a parent or parents who did not care one tiny bit about their kids. I bet you know some too. So - I can not grant you the "she doesn't count"..... She DOES count. Contraction #2.

People are reading this statement and taking time to write responses. Obviously they care or they would not *waste* their time with you. Contradiction #3.

God loves you. Flawed, imperfect, damaged, hurting.... just as you are. Contradiction #4.

I hope you can find a way to SEE some of the positives that you do have.