I think I would also pull away a bit from my therapist. If I poured it out to her, I might not be able to hold it together enough to function through such a difficult time. I'd try and keep my pain close, even deny the pain, simply so I could get through my day.

I am sending you such warm and caring thoughts, Rainbow. Please come here, as often as you need to, to vent, cry, seek support, and lean on your PC friends. You deserve it.