i've been scratching my arm for about a week now

i want to <font color="red"> HURT </font> myself worse!!!!

i don't feel ANYTHING right now

my cat died last week

next week i'm either going to get fired or reprimanded bad

i have an appt with a therapist wednesday

i haven't been to a therapist in over a decade

i <font color="yellow"> HATE </font> that i'm going

i'm going because my boss is impossible and i'm sooooooooooo STRESSED at work

but i'm gonna get fired soon and then won't have insurance and won't be able to pay the bills

i've thought about <font color="red"> burning </font> down the place where i work!!! i wouldn't....but it's fun to think about

i don't feel anything right now

nothing....nothing....nothing....nothing..........................

what if i go to the therapist wednesday and she doesn't take me seriously and she thinks i should just deal with my boss & my work stress??

what other option is there? just deal with it....

WELL I OBVIOUSLY CAN"T.............blah...............................................................................................................................................................blah.........

i want to <font color="red"> burn </font> myself...i used to <font color="red"> burn </font> myself with my curling iron (to clumsy to do my hair with it....had to use it for something, right!)

burning really hurts though...scratching doesn't - just makes an ugly on my arm