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i dont know what to do anymore. my on again off again boyfriend of over 2 years was diagnosed with bipolar about 10 years or so ago. i knew this in the very beginning of the relationship. i have survived with outburts and manic stages and still stand by him today. he switches jobs all the time. i think he has had like 7 or 8 jobs in 2 years. i can deal with all of that. i can deal with the fighting. but its getting really hard to cope with losing him every 2 months. in two years he has never stayed with me longer than two months. its like its almost planned. he isnt on medication because he keeps swapping jobs and doesnt stay long enough to get benifits so he has no insurance to go to a dr or get on anything to help him.
we will fuss and fight and i try so hard not to but its hard to trust anything he says anymore. he goes from loving me and wanting to get married and talk about having a baby and a month later he talks about me like im this horrible person and puts me down to other people. then he will leave and move on to the next girl. he says he jumps around because he cant be alone but he doesnt understand that i am here for him and not going anywhere.
i think about it from a standpoint that he is useing me as a security blanket that he can just run back to and ill take him back everytime. when we split the longest he will stay away is about a week. but he still will talk to me and text me and tell me he cares about me but his bipolar is acting up so he needs his space and then eventually he comes back after i pull away.
i love this man so much. and from what i believe he loves me. what can we do? we both have 3 children he has 3 from a preivious marrage and i have 3 from one as well and they see us going back and forth. my kids adore him. and it hurts them to see whats going on too. im at the line of setting a good example for my daughters and leaving him completly or sticking it out hoping that one day he will see how im here and we can get him help.
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