The whole point is that I was NOT attracted to the woman I met this weekend or to the woman who sexually assaulted me. I went on one date with each of them and knew within the first hour of the date that I was not interested. That's where I'm not following you. I was not drawn to them; quite the opposite! They had great profiles and very polite emails but as soon as I met them in person, I was able to see that they were not what I was looking for.

It's also not my "fault" that i just didn't click with the nice women I met. You can't force chemistry if it isn't there. We exchanged great emails but, in person, we had little to talk about or there was no physical attraction or we realized that we didn't have enough in common. Not everyone who is nice is the right match for me. Thats why I just need a break from it all for right now.

Eta: I also don't think the woman I met this weekend was "trashy." She just had more of a stereotypically "masculine" personality in that she was more aggressive/foreward. I prefer women who are more mild mannered and gentile. With lesbian dating, there is a lot of gender politics to take into account.