Not gonna lie but I didn't read everything (im sorry) (I just read title and first sentences)
But I think perfectionism as 2 things
1. Neurotic perfectionism
2. Healthy perfectionism
Neurotic perfectionism = unhealthy need for something to be perfect. For example I am aware im a neurotic perfectionist and I noticed that I've micromanaged people in group projects to the point I ended up doing all the work because I'm scared they'll mess up which is really bad lol.. I do that with other projects too and I do all nighters and stay up late to do it. Depending on my mood like if I am manic I can actually get things done and be productive but when I'm very irritated I would hyper focus and be unhappy with all the things I've done rip it up start over and over. Essays writing drafts of the same thing over and over. I know it's irrational it doesn't have to be perfect but I get so distressed. I think the root of this issue is bc of living Under an abusive authoritative dad lol.
The healthy perfectionist is like the neurotypical kids in AP classes who studies and do all their work and get A's but they're still generally content satisfied with their work and able to do things without it negatively impairing their life while still achieving a sort of satisfaction in their work or what they do. (Sorry im generalizing)
I don't think there's 1 exact term it's like a gray area and it's like spectrum different levels of it Ya know
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