Age 15: First major episode, severe mixed state with psychosis, went completely insane and was trying to attack myself, was forcibly committed for over a week. The professionals there were complete NOOOOBZ and failed to detect either my trauma issues or my BP issues. Diagnosed me with depression and tried to make me take Zoloft. Thank goodness I refused or I would have went nuts all over again.

Ages 16-early 20s: On/Off Depression and Mixed States, 1 Suicide Attempt, Tons Of Weed

Age 23: Second psychotic break in life during a Mixed State, completely lost it, hadn't been sleeping for days, thought the government was going to kill my family, wound up eventually seeing a therapist, then a pdoc, diagnosed with both PTSD and BP 1 with psychotic features at the end of it all, refused to take my meds because I was scared to death of them

Ages 24-25: Continued to have mixed states, paranoid psychosis, etc. Eventually ran away to the other side of the country, kept losing jobs due to mixed states and paranoid psychosis, tried Lexapro at some point, completely lost my mind, still refused to acknowledge that I'm bipolar

Age 26: Wound up homeless, totally insane, almost died

Present: Recently started seeing a pdoc and started Zyprexa

There's tons of details left out but that is a decent overall gist.