Yup, individual tomorrow. I'll see how long I last without talking about the miserable group session.

I keep going because I think, if I were ever able to be open to it, it might be helpful. Or else I'm going because T wants me to and I trust his opinion. And sometimes I'm really optimistic about it. Only once I get in there do I flip out and can't say anything. I hate having T watch me struggling there too. I know I don't act like myself at all when I'm there, even though group is supposed to be some sort of microcosm of your real life experience. Well in real life I avoid participating in group sessions (other than happy social events) so the analogy doesn't hold for me.

I briefly mention my problems like my job loss. I don't find it helpful to talk about them there. Then I just feel obligated to give updates on it or something and sometimes I don't want to talk at all. I was content merely to listen tonight but had T trying to drag me in. Not that I blame him -- he probably wonders why I keep coming too.

Blah.
Sidony