Childhood Years-Lots of anxiety from abuse.

Age 14-When I first remember being depressed, also when I was still living with my dad and my (abusive) stepmother.

Age 16-Depression deeper, anxiety heightened and started self-harming.

Age 17-I ran away from Dads house to live with Granny and my depression really got bad. Anxiety sky high. PTSD kicked in and self-harm got significantly worse. Saw my first T and pdoc. DX was major depression. Crisis counselor for four days.

18-20- Off and on on meds and in therapy. Not doing well. First hospitalization.

21-Suicidal and sent to pdoc by a good friend who was concerned. Dx BP2, rapid cycling with mixed features. Generalized Anxiety and Panic Disorder. This is when my behavior got really out there for me....meeting people from online and being impulsive with different behaviors. Dangerous ones. Non compliant at times. Second hospitalization.

26-Hospital pdoc gives me dx for BPD and mood d/o nos. In and out of the hospital for suicidal depressions and mixed episodes.

27-former pdoc says no to BPD and gives me dx BP1 with rapid cycling.

*Fast forward to now at 28 and my current pdoc says a mix between PTSD, BPD and BP.*
Ive been most recently IP for hypomania and mixed episodes. Psyd's opinion is I have BP2, rapid cycling.

Basically...I cycle a lot lol

I have OD twice, been in hospital 7 times and in crisis stabilization unit 4 times.