Lithium. I have a love/hate relationship with it. On the plus it has significantly reduced my suicide risk by lowering agitation etc in mixed states but I have gained 20kg on it and want my old body back. I am planning to come off it in November when I have a three month break from university so I can more easily manage the side-effects and possible resumption of symptoms. I was on 1250mg a day but have at least got it down to 750mg.

Agomelatine was the worse drug I have ever had. It is an anti-depressant and it sent me into an out of control mixed state within days where I attempted suicide and nearly died. I begged the pdoc to get me off the med and help me as I was not in control of my actions and was going to kill myself. She said, "Well, I can't help you with that" and told me to come back in two weeks. I was nearly dead within hours. I should have sued the pdoc but I was too unwell.