I try to live a generally happy life. I work two jobs trying to keep bills paid and roof over my head. I've got a man who loves me and we're trying to plan a wedding for next year. I have a step daughter who'll be 3 next month and she seems to get along with me alright.

But in the past few months that nagging feeling has been hitting me again. That urge to run, to get the hell out of dodge. I don't just wanna disappear to some beach and leave the world behind I want to do something with my life. Like to go to Africa or some 3rd world country and work with children or do something to make my life feel like it's worth something. I don't just want to run but to see the world and come back with stories to tell.

Then I think back on those who need me and I find myself stuck here and generally unhappy. I love my man and his little girl like she was my own, and even my jobs are decent enough, but I'm just not happy. I'm in a constant fight or flight feeling. Do I fight it off and stay or fly and try to make a life for myself elsewhere...?