Why do I want to kill myself? This is the question I have been asking myself every day for about a month now. I have been thinking about ending myself every single day and I do not understand why. Despite my best intentions, I can not seem to control these disturbing thoughts. This is not my first time feeling this way, either. It seems to come and go, but this time it's worse. I am currently being medicated for Bipolar disorder and since I started the drug, I have not felt manic at all. That's great and all, but in it's place is a deepening depression that makes me want to kill myself every day of my life, all day long. I guess I am just looking for someone to talk to about the issues I have and maybe just some reassurance that I'm not alone in this. My therapist isn't much help.