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13-14: Was bullied by classmates because of the pronunciation of my full name, and playing an out-dated game(Runescape) while everyone progressed to more thrilling games like FPS games. So, I was ostracized by these "bandwagons" who thinks playing an Out-dated game equates to being a nerd. I couldn't get myself up to go to school, but I had to because I was forced to. I didn't enjoy my time back during school days.

15-16:
My thoughts naturally evolved from normal thinking to something such as life-thoughts, detailed-thoughts, deep-thoughts, thoughts-relating to spirituality. I began to relate a lot to many people, even despite them not being close to me.

17-19(now):
I listened to a Chinese song, called "Angel", and it describes about an angel being behind and supports a person standing. Gives me the thought that I hope to become a selfless and loving angel that everyone yearns for.
My interest in English music slowly diminished and I started appreciating Chinese Music (which what people would commonly refer to "emotional" or "depressing" music). However, I appreciate Chinese music better when I learn to understand the meaning behind it's lyrics, and not simply because of it's solemn tunes.
Been through countless of cycles of extreme moodswings but yet still survived it.

I attended a Buddhist study class for the youths. It wasn't just simply praying for the better, but rather, I learnt a lot about human's ability to be able to surpass their thoughts of spirituality with the right knowledge and right teacher. I used to view Buddhism, Christianity, Islam, Catholic, Hindu, Sikh, etc.. as different religions, but the term " religion " doesn't exist in my dictionary anymore, but I thought of what kind of life philosophies we can learn out of it.

This in fact, totally changed my life, from someone who gets by each day dilly dally, to someone who likes to focus on character development. I began to study myself, and connect myself to my surroundings where people are staring at their tablets/device almost all the time.

- I began to accept what I have in my possessions and be contented with what I have.
- I've contemplated death, but I am not afraid of when I would die, but rather, how much I can focus on doing good deeds.
- I feel like it takes so much to make me angry.
Sometimes, I'll show my honest appreciation to people who have benefitted me a lot or little.
- I do get frustrated with people who makes me irritated, but I simply alter my frame of mind to try to understand the other party or what I can learn out of it.
- I aspire to help living beings within my means, whether it be an insect that I can squash when it lands on my arm, or stray animals, to human beings.
- I wear my usual or dull clothing to lectures, or perform any actions that may seem unconventional to people, but I just simply couldn't care being judged or not. No point wasting my energy on this.
- When I observed people do make a fuss out of a situation, I will naturally listen to their conversations and analyze on how they could have dealt with the issues with a nicer approach.
- When I see a huge sign relating to a fatal accident on the road, I get depressed and easily visualize how the person was feeling when he was breathing his last.
- When I hear news that ships ferrying illegal immigrants went down the sea and many died, to ISIS extremist. I just can't help feeling depressed that if I had the power of a higher being, I will certainly get them out of this cycle of sufferings.

- Listening to Chinese music, whereby people of my age is into English Music
- Control myself from arguing with people that gives a lot of 1-sided opinions when it comes to debating in a government-controlled local media.
- Plays an outdated game like Runescape when other people are finding joy in competitive games like League or mobile games.
- Hates going outside to walk in the crowd unlike in the past.
- Uses a second-hand iPhone 4, while people are already getting iPhone 6 + comparing startup/shutdown time with my phone.

That's my life from 17-19, I naturally don't fit into the society, even though I feel comfortable, but yet at times, I feel weird as though I was the odd one out.

Well, from what I've read. I just feel like Imah is just an older version of me, and don't know if by fate or coincidence, she was there behind the computer to guide me from her experience. Thank you, Imah