Too much to tell right now and it's late, but Pdoc says he's not leaving - he's just leaving the group he's working for. So I may still be able to see him. He doesn't know anyone to recommend off hand. T said she might. So maybe there's a backup plan. All in all, I feel better, but it wasn't really a good appointment - at least it didn't feel all good, ya know. I think he was a little frustrated and angry - partly with himself and maybe partly with me. Apparently my hysterical, emotional, irrational calls with the corporate office where he now works got some attention and he heard about, but not in a bad way. He said I was making his boss work in that they are pushing to get more appointments out of the health care provider for me. He definitely wants to see me again - maybe that appointment will feel normal. This one didn't.