Reading the Verbally Abusive Relationship by Patricia Evans saved my life; I think it should be required reading for everyone on the planet; it is rampant. Abuse is a CHOICE. Reading about the subject, writing a journal for yourself, is helplful and getting into therapy is a good idea, also. When we lose something/someone we grieve...no matter how bad it was ; all feelings are normal; not right or wrong.

I stayed for 31 years until I found that book and began the journey to freedom from abuse. Everyone's journey is different in healing; be easy on yourself; little baby steps, a little at a time...