when i drive i tend to dissociate ....and its not the kind where we always do where we forget how we got there kinda thing but something gets us there....for me...its completely ....nothing...not there...blank....and i got into a really bad accident that way...i mean ER bad....and i got my license suspended for 6 months which i was really happy about.....but i couldnt just tell everyone i blanked out....first of all no body would believe me...besides...i didnt even know what dissociation meant...but now that i saw this on here i knew exactly what happened...but now everyone wants me to drive and i have my license back...but im so scared....i dont know what to do...does anyone have any ideas to either keep from dissociating? (i really dont know how to stop it, or understand why i do it so badly when i drive) or ways/or excuses to never drive again...im trying to save peoples lives here....including myself...i mean im trying to be responsible....but people keep pushing me to drive and get a car....i dont know..im scared...help!!