This is very interesting. When I have disconnect from reality I think it's always stemming from a specific issue where I feel a bit schizo - I've had two outright psychotic episodes too before that got triggered by that issue - but this phase of at least partial disconnect from reality eventually ends up in drastical mood changes. So based on what I'm reading here, I'm not sure if this is a form of bipolar disorder or schizoaffective disorder or something else.

Let me describe this a bit better. I start with overthinking and withdrawing from reality and thinking and imagining crap. By default I'm not really emotional but then after a while of that first heavily mental phase I become exactly just that - high mood, sometimes negative emotions too, but the common denominator is that it's all pretty intense!

The high mood can also come from positive interaction, it's pretty reactive in terms of that. The negative emotionality gets acted out/released eventually. After the high mood is gone and/or the negative emotions - anger-related stuff or simply feeling like crying hard - got acted out, my mind suddenly gets "cleaned out" and the whole disconnect from reality issue can resolve itself temporarily.

And then when that emotional phase fully passes, next day I can crash for a short time. Depressive crash. But it never lasts a long time. A few hours or a day or two. Then for a while I'm my normal self.

However I need to note that this "normal self" is a bit similar to what's called as atypical depression. I've had this slightly atypical depression-like baseline for a pretty long time, well before the schizo / bipolar part started up, it's a low-ish state energy-wise and mood-wise but not entirely unmotivated about life.

Does this make sense? What does this most closely resemble? Thank you