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Originally Posted by i dont matter
I am a VERY black and white thinker...... so forgive me.
You say nobody cares, then you say your mother does. Contradiction #1.
You say mom does not count cuz she is your mom and she *has to*. Not true. I know a number of people who had a parent or parents who did not care one tiny bit about their kids. I bet you know some too. So - I can not grant you the "she doesn't count"..... She DOES count. Contraction #2.
People are reading this statement and taking time to write responses. Obviously they care or they would not *waste* their time with you. Contradiction #3.
God loves you. Flawed, imperfect, damaged, hurting.... just as you are. Contradiction #4.
I hope you can find a way to SEE some of the positives that you do have.
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I DO see my positives. I'm smart, I'm funny, I'm analytical, I'm caring. NINETEEN YEARS OF ME SEEING THAT IS NOT ENOUGH. I want a guy to see that in me. I don't want to be my only fan anymore.
People taking the time to reply to me does not equal "caring" about me. It means they took the time to reply to me.
My mom caring about me makes her a good parent. She gave birth to me and she has a normal brain. Therefore, she's going to have a connection to me because I'm her daughter. I didn't choose my mom. She didn't choose me. I still love her and she loves me, but our love for each other was never a choice.
I want to be chosen. But, whatever.