Obviously nothing I said warranted any hugs. but at least your first fear didn't come true! (The one about your first post being your last???)

I have been trying to think about your dilemma... and really think that by notating the post with the trigger icon, and special subject wording... and beginning with generics... you will find that you can discuss what you really need to, and not freak anyone else out.

This is a good question for DocJohn.... about having a post "screened" by a mod BEFORE posting it... or even if a mod can replace a pulled post... like, being online with a mod and having them read your post first... blah blah blah it would be easiest to have a "screening" process maybe? But then, thinking more... by taking time to post... and thought... we all often screen our own posts and edit them...

but you are not alone ... "just" because of the rules... because many of the members have memories of traumas that they cannot bare wide open and discuss because of the triggering nature...

you do realize that you can PM members who won't be triggered and are willing to work with you... and can say virtually anything in a PM??? I, for one, would like to hear some of what you are dealing with... and perhaps the mods would do this for you too?