I have only had one 6 year relationship prior to this current one. I have been seeing somebody new for the last 4 months and discovering I have a few issues! The main ones are very contradicting to me though so I wondered if anyone else has experienced a similar thing. I'm not sure this is relevant but for the 7 months I was single after this relationship, I was thoroughly happy.

Firstly, I really like him, but the commitment scares me. We agreed to be exclusive about a month ago but I pulled out of that just a few days later. He went away recently and when he came back we became exclusive again. Now, a week later, I'm having the same thoughts of making it casual again. Although the thought of him even kissing someone else sparks a lot of jealousy, I just can't thinking that I'm almost signing my life and freedom away even though we spend every day together, which I enjoy, and he's not controlling at all.
In contradiction to this, I constantly need reasureance that he's still in to me. I read in to every little thing almost obsessively and notice every little thing whether he forgets to kiss me goodbye to how long he holds eye contact.
I'm the most content when he is giving me buckets of attention and affection.
Can anyone make sense of these contradicting emotions and how to control them? I never realised what a nightmare I can be.