I am new here on site and have been looking around seeing how others feel and react with each other. My friend, known as Ziggy introduced me to this site. He has been there for me on a personal level chatting and helping me cope. I have been out of it sort to speak for over a year and on medical leave from work. I thought I was just panicing over my mothers transition from her own home to an elderly housing complex, but that wasnt it.
I would wake up , crying , couldnt breath, and just not feeling right and couldnt go to work. Other days cry, or if someone said anything to me I would yell or cry didnt know from moment to moment. Some days I just close my door to my room and hide from life cause I cant deal with things. my friends and even my mother doesnt understand what is wrong they think I am playing , just acting out cause I want attention or lazy. I am not any of the above. I cant do things I wanted to do , cant enjoy things like I use to nothing. I feel like my inner person is control everything but out of control at the same time.
I seeked medical help which they started me on meds I have tried so many and to this day I am not on anything that really works. I also see a therapst regularly and with her they are adjusting meds right and left cause nothing seems to work on me.
I am depressed at times, and then other times anxiety hits me to the most and wow I feel bad for anyone in my path. My list goes on for miles of things I can and cant do etc.. maybe in time I will be me once again and see life and enjoy life like I did.. til then I guess I seek and reach out here, see my therapst and take my meds til something allows me to see the light and get my life back. When I do settle down I do appoligize for actions I cant control. My husband has been great and tries to help me when I am out of control, without him I dont know where I would be to be honest.
I just wanted to say hi and to let you know I am here , love to talk to others , and who knows help each other in the long run if needed.

So I guess your not alone, there is many of us out there...

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