So your happiness is dependent on a stranger's opinion of you? (I say stranger - because even you say "a guy"; not a specific person).

Sorry, but I see your logic as flawed. I do not want to dismiss your loneliness, your pain. I get it. But the stuff us old people say really IS true....

1st you must love yourself as you are.
2nd you can not be "looking" for love; love will find you. The more you look for it - the more you will scare off potential matches.

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