DAY 09

Skipped some days of updating (but not of med) because my mind was getting pretty ugly up in there. Agitation started coming back, insomnia started coming back, suicidal and homicidal ideation started coming back, racing thoughts, etc.

However tried 10mg instead of 5mg and there was a major difference. Finally slept like a rock and feel very calm now. I can enjoy just 'being' which is such a rare and lovely feeling. Currently stretched out in front of the morning sun, checking emails and eating some ground beef with a pickle for a breakfast (gotta do low-carb so I don't get diabetes on this med). And I'm just comfy and relaxed, but not hungover-feeling.