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Originally Posted by Patagonia
I've been lost! So lost for the past 8 months I have to wonder what was real. Someone I loved a great deal has abused some of my parts & hurt them severely.
I can't reach them. I can't comfort them.
It scares me to know I don't seem to have them here. This is not what I expected.
Now what?
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When things got confusing like this for me my treatment provider would remind me that one thing about DID is that its different than psychotic disorders like schizophrenia. reality testing remains intact with dissociative disorders. so even though it may ....feel ...unreal and I may wonder whats real. I actually do know whats real I just needed to take a step back, breath and take that moment to assess whats real and what isnt. this helped so much is re grounding my reality and then I could ltake the time to find ways to stay calm and understand even insiders need a break from accessing the outside world too.
Alters/insiders can dissociate (feel numb, spaced out, disconnected/ have other alters taking over for what they can not handle...) too. here in America we dont have recognized mental disorders for when an alter dissociates \splits into other alters and such like other countries may have (poly fragmented DID is not one of americas recognized disorders in the DSM 5) but it is part of having what america calls DID in the DSM 5 for some people.
maybe your insiders just needed break from the outside world just like the body born person needed that break when they were abused and dissociated (spaced off, felt numb... what ever the dissociative symptoms were)
give it some time and healing and when its meant to be those alters will show their selves again.