I understand that my coping mechanisms only lead to anger, frustration and hurting others. You see I know that there are many emotions people feel and in the ways they express them is what makes people who they are. Generally people's emotions are one in the same, if one is shy then another one who is the same relates. Just as with all the emotions which are a large group I suppose make them all relatable to people who feel them. I know that if I feel all those emotions my definition of expression is only if my limited coping mechanism. Completely forget when others are feeling them and I'm supposed to understand. I can understand strengths much more than weakness. Not in a sense that people who have colorful feelings are weak, it's just what I'm used to thinking of. Part of my "N" ways which accounts for blurred vision when it comes to these types of things. I also fully understand the mirrors and looking in as me rather that someone as their own. This at times really holds me back, feels as if the weight of the world is carried by me alone. That my mind is a tool that compares to ones who are depressed, underdeveloped, completely nuts and everything i between. Because I have NpD it allows me to transform what one may show as what it is for me to show as an opposite. To take something and not have to speak words to manipulate. To act in a way of just movement that makes me something I am not. I am lucky I guess that I am able to feel for myself because if I didnt I probably would of been a serial killer... Anyways that's it for now. I do appreciate the feedback and to see another with NpD here speaking of things that would make another with the same appreciate. Not an easy task here.