I'm so sorry to hear you're struggling this much .... I wish there were more that us here on PC could do for you ....

I know that i have a really angry brother sometimes ... and he ofter "freaks out" and breaks things, or takes it out on my parents, and I know how much it hurts them sometimes. Just try and give him a little space to breathe ... if he's anything like my brother, you're only going to give him fuel if you try and stop his actions directly.

Take good care of yourself,
hugs, Jacq