You made me smile there. I'm glad you feel well enough to have little jokes in there.

I hope you get the 1st 2nd opinion too. Like I said I would take clozaril if I knew I'd tried everything but I'd want to be sure that I'd done everything.

Ooh, I just remembered....Several years ago we were getting close to it and I was trying to go back to work and getting worse instead of better. I asked my pdoc why nothing was helping me and why I would get worse when I was trying so hard to be better and wanted nothing but to go back to work. She said before we had to make really hard decisions she wanted 2nd opinions so she hooked me up with 2 other pdocs. One has done IP for many, many years and the other is the head of psychiatry at the big hospital I go to. I wound up IP instead of seeing them (I did see the IP guy I think once but not for the consult, just b/c he was on call) and had forgotten. But that's the kind of thing I want before Clozaril, my dr double-checking herself. 3 drs. saying clozaril would be a lot easier to take than just one. I think she knew I trusted her totally but that hearing this from others would be a good thing.