To everyone: Thank you for your care, your support and comments. Affirms my experiences are shared, and my existance is okay.

To specific people:
@ Lunaticfringe- You describe what has happened to me for over 35 years. An insurmountable force suddenly makes me notice a person, or an object. People I become obsessed with when I get this connection- things,like clouds - trees, animals - psychic awarenesses I focus in on trying to take in with spirit whatever the message is and conduct it along the path as seems natural.

@Copper Star- I think many of us would love being able to see that, and in my case - to look for the correlation, as I have tried to explain to people what the god spirit is, and how people are connected, and the balance of life. In my case, the description word I use is conduit.

@Cash. I have previously determined that some of us might be recieves, and others transmitters, and yet others can do both. I receive unwillingly, I transmit only with great effort.

@sidestepper: Had my tarots stolen in hs because the person thought the power was the cards, it was me. Could clearly center in on people and 'feel' their energy when young, until I did it to someone who - idk how the heck she knew. But she said she was a witch, I was practicing black magic and if I didnt stop she and her coven would make me. Took me 4 years to break the weird shield she put on me. I have seen in public people who called for my aid spiritually. I have messed up guys by on purpose wearing the same color as they day after day because of tuning in. I loved that part of me, and yet also know I personally did some bad karmic things in trying to control (guys) into loving me. My abilities are greatly reduced - by god, or time, or my own mental break idk. but be careful that you don't harm yourself. Keep kind.

I want us to explore these delusions so much more. This group is the best thing that ever happened to me as far as coming to understand the experiences that we share, that the normies don't get.

Best of luck to us all.

Edit- Its hours later, I googled: Delusions Psychic connection and bipolar came up immediately and I didn't add the word. My theory is old news. Interesting, I'm going to read more - just wanted to share.