ak482, I was late to the sex world myself. It is a crushing thing to carry around, don't let anyone say different. But it is also a load of ********, that society makes you feel the way you do, and there is some amount of choice in how much you buy into all this. We live in a crass culture and we are fed a lot of toxic ideas.

I am suffering too, cuz I have been shut out of this world again now, due to depression and illness. Feels like I am going crazy.

I get the despair you feel. I think we just have convince ourselves that we deserve love and to expect it and it then it shows up.

Hang in there!!!