I think I feel impending doom similarly. Your not alone. I haven't figured out why it could happen. I usually can put some logical reason to the most odd things a fantasy teller in my own head.

I say, impending doom is like something is just over the horizon - huge and inpenetrable. If I were to give it an image, that image is depicted in Stephen Kings - Langoliers.

It makes no sense, and yet so real it is palpable.

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Having the need to contact another person to get us over tough times is very hard when our self worth is low. So I will have you look at it from another vantage point.

If I were feeling down, and I called you - and you helped me feel better, or least of all, not alone - would that make you feel worth? Would you feel good, knowing you helped another? By not calling your coach, you are not allowing that person an opportunity coaching personal are there for.

Most people in the health field do so because they want to help others.

When I call the crisis center, it may seem mediocre to me - but I do so because I cannot overcome the current emotion that prompted me to call. You are in that state.

<3 Best of luck to you, and to us all.