Ozze, you are not an offender. Assault triggered my babie's ocd as well. You will grow to be a compassionate man. What happened to you triggered a response in your brain. It was wrong what happened to you. It is good to look at it and find yourself to be a good person who will not hurt others. You will develop a strong sense of morality and ethics from your experience. You have the power to make a change in your life. What happened to you was because of that person, not you. I hope this makes sense. You are NOT going to hurt a child.