Shadix, you have to stop feeling bad about yourself. It's lower than zero. Worse than all the worst combined. A waste of time and energy. You have a choice to be positive. It may be hard to "forget" the bad memories but we can learn to be strong and get by.

Tbh, I think I won't even notice that mole.

But, it's important to feel good about yourself. If you feel like removing it, then go ahead ... But Psyco123 also has a point. When it's done, you might also be obsessing with the next thing you find.

It's great to read about helpful information, but I think you also have to stop generalizing things based on what you learn about? How about you really hit it off with only one woman first and get to experience what it's really like. Maybe you can even debunk some of those that you've read about.

I'm not disregarding the story about your past. I've had some unpleasant experiences too. But one thing that really stood out to me, which also worked for me--is confidence.

You see "ugly" guys with a beautiful woman? Check.
You know of "broke" guys with a super-healthy relationship? I do.
Even jerks can get away with it. Yup, self-confidence.

You can do it!

But you have to stop with those limiting beliefs first. Set yourself free, man.