Oh my god mama. I understand mommy forums tell you to go seek help but a few times they can relate. I come here 50/50. They are so helpful here. So many can relate.

The more you stay in, the harder it gets to go out. I've found some mom group support on meet-up. Not sure about your area. Just watching the kids play with other moms is what we do.

I am on meds as well, Effexor for depression/anxiety. I am doing so much better. I have worked full time while going to school FT. Let me tell you, raising a child... Is harder! Esp with schedule inconsistencies and lack of sleep!

Some moms have told me : daycare. That means getting work.., working to take regular breaks ... from child care... I get it mama I'm with you