Hi bing, welcome to Psych Central, I hope you will feel welcome here. Sorry you are finding things so difficult at the moment. People here know what it is like to have difficulty with Mental Health so no pity, but many people who want to help and will NOT make fun of you. You may be able to help other people too, sometimes words are not necessary, a picture or a hug can encourage someone. I hope you find as much help and support here as I have.