Thanks for all the love last night everyone. I have indeed woken to a new day. I'm still having some serious anxiety, but I'm actually taking care of myself! No coffee, thinking positively instead of feeding into bad thoughts and keeping things simple.

I had a massive panic/depressive episode yesterday triggered by packing for a trip home. I'm not thinking ahead anymore after yesterday. I 've taken all the precautions to keep myself safe while I'm there that I can think of. I got my meds refilled to make sure I don't run out, and I've got good resolve that I WILL TAKE THEM! There are some issues related to this trip that makes it much less pleasurable, but..."fun & smooth" is the mantra.