hey, just wanted to let you know that you're not alone. i've been through traumas in my childhood that affected me later on. do your parents know what had happened when you stayed with your aunts and uncles? if not, they have absolutely no clue. if they know about this, they might have a better understanding to what you are going through. i say, 'might', since not everyone understands. if they still don't understand, then, you have us here. we understand. i know how much you're suffering. please, know this, it's not your fault. having a therapist and a doctor can really help. i know you wish it could all get better just like that. we all do, but it's not like that. you are not alone in your journey. i hope i'm making sense.