Hello Everyone, as the title mentions I think my mother triggers my anxiety issues, and it feels like pregnancy is just intensfying my emotions. Here's a little background info on myself. I am 25 and I am pregnant with my first child and I am due in less than a month, or maybe sooner. When I entered college, 5 years ago, I was prescribed Xanax, and quickly began abusing them, especially when I was at home and had to deal with my mom. It was at the time a good way to numb my emotions, to stop me from feeling I was going to break down at any moment. 3 years ago, I stopped taking Xanax, when I realized I had a problem. I don't want to whine and say my mother is the cause to all my problems, but she is a very stressful person to deal with and lately it feels like we argue every 2 weeks.

My mothers had a diffucult life herself, she has 6 sister who never approved of her, married for 20 years to an abusive husband, and lastly a string of health problems. It seems like by the time I was born, I got the hysterical mother always ready to snap. she makes hurtful passive argressive comments, often doesn't realize her comments have crossed the line, when she's angry she often starves herself, lies frequantly usually to make others feel gullt, and denying her a favor leads her to throw tantrum, also when she wants something done her way...she never ask for help, but expects it none the less.

My partner and I are living at my house, and her passive agressive comments about him stress me out. I am having a child with him and her comments affect me emotionally, I listen until I can't anymore and find my self lashing out at her and feeling drained, tired, nervous the whole day. I hate how I feel afterwards, I mean she is the way she is and I should be used to it, but I can't deal with it. everytime I hear her doing something I can't rest, I feel I need to be helping her, because she won't ask but she sure as hell will start yelling or start throwing a tantrum. I am less than a month away from having a baby and I feel I've trapped my partner and I in a bad situation living at home until we can afford a house.

what can I do? how can i deal with anxiety? I am scared of having a child while living at home.