I have no one in my life to share this with right now but I'm proud of myself for two things. First, I went to a birthday party. So that was a social situation which I almost always avoid. I had a good time playing card games. The other thing I'm proud of & that was even more difficult was that there were a few people smoking pot. It wasn't directly in front of me but I could smell it. It was around. That was probably the hardest part. It was uncomfortable. I felt left out. I felt like I wasn't any fun. I managed though and I'm back home, sober.

My question now is... Why do I feel like crying? I want to tell my therapist about this but I can't contact him unless I need him.