I'm not trying to invalidate you, just honestly wondering, but are there things in your life right now that you believe would make you feel engaged, pleased, interested, etc if you were capable of feeling those things?

I've had plenty of periods in my life where my life was empty (including currently). I wasn't numb but I was empty. I find they can feel quite similar, but have different remedies. I think this happens especially (for me) when I've been faking my way through life for a while, trying to get along, blend in and survive, and then suddenly reality hits, and I'm not truly happy or fulfilled with my life. It might be hectic, or 'full' in the sense of a crazy schedule and lots of things I need to do, but emotionally it can still be quite empty.

Just wondering if you have ruled this out yet?