I am taking a break from the whole job thing.

Me and my psychiarist came to the conclusion that I was only doing it because I was feeling pressured to do it, therefore was adding to my anxiety to the point of avoiding it. She thinks once people back off a bit and let me do this on my own and know that I can do it when i'm ready and work at my own pace that the anxiety will become less.

It worked in the past, I was applying for a ton of jobs when no one was forcing me to do it.

I am only on Remeron for anxiety.... obviously as well as depression and ptsd. I was on Ativan last year for a short time and had an adverse reaction to it. So staying away from the benzos. Better off that way.

My anxiety otherwise has been great... job anxiety is the worse for me right now. I've not avoiding working or applying, but I can't be pressured to do it. Know what I mean?

I might look into adult education and get my GED. But i'm too chicken [censored] to phone and get information.