Just wanted you all to know that I may be scarce for a few days. My husband borrowed more money on credit without discussing it with me. He used that money to go to the casino. Sigh. It just doesn't seem to stop. When I went to my therapy session my T applauded the steps I have taken. I closed our line of credit, I woke him up to tell him I was upset rather then wait until it was a convenient time for him, I readdressed the issue on a couple of occasions when he was actually fully awake. On Wednesday, we have an appointment to see my T. She is going to help me confront him about this problem and hopefully get him committed to going to seek therapy for himself or to join a group like gamblers anonymous. I am frightened but my T assured me that she would be with me every step of the way. No matter how it turns out she will help me determine what is the next safest step for me to take...even if that step is doing nothing. This has left me extremely exhausted so I have been directing all my remaining energy into self care and coping stragtegies. I have not self injured in 13 days even with this going on. You are all in my thoughts even though I am not able to be here right now.
Love,
Carrie