((((((perna & erinbear)))))))

this is someone new...my job has an Employee Assistance Program that provides six free sessions....i made an appt two weeks ago....got to the office and got scared...i left!!

i had a BAD night that night and went to my medical doctor the next morning...he's supposed to be setting up a referal but said to try the EAP again...so i am....

i'm just SO worried! i'll be devistated if she turns all Dr. Phil on me!!!!!!!!!!!!! i don't need tough love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i need help - i need someone to be on my side!

i know i'll need a few good swift kicks in butt eventually - but i'm hurting to much right now....i'm living to close to the edge.

when i was in therapy before (on and off from age 14 to about 20) i didn't get as much out of it as i could have...i got what i needed at the time.

but geez - what perspective from teens to 32!! i'm so scared i'm opening myself up for hurt