@tiger8

i realized there must be something wrong with me because while everyone seems to have lots of crushes all the time, i never get interested in anyone who's reachable, if that makes sense. when i do have some sort of interest it's totally platonic, like i have with my gay friend. but even in that situation, i don't really have the urge to kiss or have sex, i just feel like i need some sort of physical contact, so holding hands or hugging is enough for me. but when it's about other guys, i'm not even capable of those things. i'm so disconnected from everyone a touch is enough to make me all awkward. i feel like i'm not capable of real interest and it sucks.