I didn't want to have to be this way that I'm asking my psychiatrist for help with my physical health problems but I'm at a loss and don't know what else to do. I can't go to my neurologist anymore because of an altercation that occurred..he agreed to send me for an MRI after I insisted on it and then I came to find out he didn't follow through. At my second and last appointment ever, he was verbally abusive towards me. He told me I'm stupid and I don't know anything and my problems are imaginary because I'm a woman and women are not right in the head. My family doctor sent me for a brain CT scan, he didn't explain to me what's wrong just said my pituitary gland looks different from how a normal one looks. I don't know what that even means and I'm not going to continue asking questions when I never get answers anyway. I refuse to wait months for an MRI as waiting means that I have to suffer and get worse in the meantime. I'm planning to end my life by driving my car into oncoming traffic, people have told me this is a bad idea but I have no other options.